Friday, October 21, 2011

My Husband, My Hero!

Caution: This is a sappy, hormonal induced story.......

This is my wonderful honey! I know you have heard me talk about him before, but I LOVE him so much.

 I know this sounds strange but one of the hardest part of D, is pretending that everything is okay. For me not just D but other health problems too. My family has always kept me strong, and helped me conquer everything I could. They have stood by me through thick and thin. But I always felt a little, well, broken. Living in Utah isn't easy when you are not a perfect size 0 Mommy of 3.6 kids that are involved in every activity out there. Also, again with the whole perfect thing, nobody admits when there is something wrong with them. Admitting  means you become a leper.  So, long story short, I was pretty much marked for reject island as a barren, diabetic fatty. Sounds mean, but its true. 

I felt proud of the work I had done, where my job was going, and be "Nanny". I pretty much just thought that was going to be my life, and I came to grips with the fact that I wan't going to get married. I was okay with that. I had dated, and was even engaged. It ALWAYS came up! It was ALWAYS an issue. I was ALWAYS treated like a fourth class citizen in the magical dating meat market.

When Tyler came into my life, and became my husband, I never realized how amazing it could be. I found someone who loved me for me. D checks in the middle of the night, no kids, insulin pump wearing, edema ridden legs, and a pudgy tummy. He actually LOVED it all because it was part of me. We have so much fun, and he puts up with my weird habits like having to have the sink clean before bed (yes, mom, I haven't really admitted it but you hooked me), not having my feet covered in bed, and my strange love for having a mini farm. 

He always tells me I am beautiful, even in the morning. He sings to me, and indulges my strange love for all things little, cute, or animal. Even though I knew him for almost 4 years before we got married, he is the prince charming I never thought I would ever have. When he confessed that he had always loved me, but was just scared of commitment, it made my heart happy. When he told me he thought I was beautiful the first time he ever saw me, I cried. When I first met him, chemo meds had taken all my hair. 

I thought my life would always be lacking something. Now I feel so proud, and so happy. He has shown me that I am already complete, and that I have always been. I just didn't know it. 

I love cute, pretty, and sparkles, but I know life isn't that all the time. I sometimes use it as a cover for the pain. I can say in all honesty, I am so blessed. I have wonderful family. Amazing parents and siblings, and a husband who saw me, for who I was, and loved me for me!

I love you Honey! :)

Poor thing was sick :(


Pumpkin Walk

For the last 5 years, I have participated in the "Pumpkin Walk" This is our scene this year. 
My Grandfriends made the cute spiders!

There is more than on picture of some of the scenes because some where day an the others were night!

Happy Halloween!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Deads End Haunted Attraction

My family makes monsters! Yes, I am serious! Here is some of the creations. Most of these creatures are designed by my dad. He and my sister Kenzie love this! They are the brains behind the current Deads End Haunted Attraction.

 It's now in its 15th year! It started as paper skeletons and painted cardboard my dad and I put together as a community project, and it has now bloomed into this! I used to participate more in the creation and painting, but after a hand injury that effected my grip, its hard. Kenzie has recently completed a course in special effects, and someday would like to professionally create monsters for Hollywood. Its a big family affair. Everyone has their part.

If you want to see more, check out our website at: 

Happy Halloween!

My sister Tina
(find her on facebook and YouTube under "Tombstone Tina" 
for movie reviews and a video of the current haunt!

My sister Kenzie at Deads End Studios

Binx lending a hand! (He got his name from "Hocus Pocus")

All of our monsters are hand made! Lots of fun! You wouldn't believe some of the articles used to make creatures. Most of them can be found at Home Depot. Make one for your own front yard!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Invisible Illness Meme

I found this is my "Drafts" and thought I would post it......

 The illness I live with is:  Type 1 Diabetes. (Also, a "lupus" like Autoimmune Disease that causes joint pain, rash, and problems with being in the sunshine)

 I was diagnosed with it on:  I have had problems since I was a kid. My mom would take me to the doctor and they would say it's hormones or other crap. In February 1997, I was at the doctors office and despite other tests being overlooked that would have confirmed it I had a BG of almost 500.

 I've had symptoms since:  I had a lot of sick days as a kid, but it got worse when I was a teenager. When I was younger I was thirsty I would drink from the ditch in the field where we liked to play. My mom would tell the doctors but they said it was normal. I also had horrid problems with my eyes. My mom would take me every 6 months to a specialist who told me I would probably be blind by the time I was 25. (It was nerve damage)

 The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is:  Making it a lifestyle. Knowing that its always there, and I can't ignore it.

 Most people assume:  There is nothing wrong with me, or that I got my D from eating too much sugar :(

 The hardest part about mornings are: Getting up. I usually don't feel well in the morning. It takes a while to get moving.

 My favorite medical TV show is:  House. Mostly because I work in the medical field and I feel smart when I call someone out on a mistake.... Just saying.... 

A gadget I couldn't live without is:   I love my Dexcom. I hate that my insurance won't cover it. My pump is amazing, but again it is very expensive.

 The hardest part about nights are:  Wondering if I might be one of those "Dead in Bed" cases! I think every younger person with T1 thinks about it. Plus, I am not a fan of 3am BG checks, but it has saved my bacon on many a nights. (mmmm Bacon!)

I take ___ pills & ____ vitamins:  5 Pills, 2 Vitamins, and insulin.

Regarding alternative treatments I: I get really upset when people give me lame advice about cinnamon (which I allergic to) or other crap about fad diets. I hate that there is no education about the 2 diseases. Everyone with D suffers regardless of what kind they have. There are very thin people with T2 D and overweight people with T1D. 

 If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: Invisible. I like that a lot of people don't know I have health problems. I hate when people say "She did that with D!" Although I appreciate the complement, I can usually work circles around some of my co-workers. I have REALLY bad days, but it doesn't stop me. People with D can do what any other person can do, it just might not be in the same way.

 People would be surprised to know: Sometimes D just makes me sad. I don't like to, and rarely do play the victim card but sometimes, it really isn't fair. I worry all the time about loosing my Dad who is also a T1 D. I get scared because of the damage that D has done to my body despite A1c levels 6% and below.  

The hardest thing to accept has been: Like I mentioned above, it never leaves your mind. You can't shove it under a carpet or not worry about it. It's ALWAYS there.

 Something I never thought I could do with my illness:  
 Hmmmmm.... I have always believed that I could do anything. I have had other health problems. I have had Chemo treatments and almost lost my hand. I ended up having Hysterectomy last year. So really the only think I can't do is bear my own children. If I want something I wouldn't let illness stop me.

The commercials about my illness: Grrrrrr...... There is NO EDUCATION about T1 D!!!! They have all these embarrassing commercials trying to scare "fat people" into loosing weight! ( I am fat, and I think these commercials are SO MEAN!) They aren't even correctly portraying T2 Diabetics, let alone, ANY diabetic! Plus, don't get me started on those annoying test your blood sugar commercials! Uggg

My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is:  * We have no control over the hand we are dealt, it's how we play that matters!* We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.

When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: 
You Can Do This! 
It becomes a part of who you are, 
and you are wonderful!!!!!!!

 Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: That you really can adapt. You are not your disease. You can still do what you want to do. There are people that will kindly show you they way if you just ask. You are not alone. You can give so much to others because you can relate to them. You meet amazing people, and have opportunity to give.

28. The nicest thing someone did for me when he wasn’t feeling well was: Just be there. It's amazing what a quick note can do! My family, friends, and work is amazing! I was so worried I may loose my job when I have been sick, but I was always covered and missed by my wonderful co-workers and "Grandfriends" at the retirement community I work at!

I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: 
Everyone is fighting their own battle.

 The fact that you read this list makes me feel: Warm and fuzzy because I know you care! :D

Sorry about the messed up formatting it wants to go to right I guess :)

Friday, October 7, 2011

No D Day! My new love for whales!

I know many have read this on facebook, 
but I wanted to share it with people who have may not read it.

Recently, in a large city in Australia, a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said, “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”
A middle-aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.
To Whom It May Concern,
Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans.) They have an active sex life, get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia.
Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans.
They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.
Mermaids don’t exist.
If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Psychologists due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don’t have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they have sex? Just look at them… where is IT?
Therefore, they don’t have kids either.
Not to mention, who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?
The choice is perfectly clear to me: I want to be a whale.
P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with siblings, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver, and a piece of chocolate with my friends.
With time, we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren’t heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy.
Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, “Good grief, look how smart I am!”

*We all need to be more gentle with ourselves and love the parts of ourselves we don't like. We need to remember that we are incredible people that can do amazing things!

Have a great weekend everyone! :D

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Beauties of Yellowstone! :)

Me and my Honey Being Silly! :)

 Bears beating each other up at Bear World

Me, My Honey, and Pumpsley who did better than I thought on my trip. My BG was ALL over the place! I had a hard time with all the extra hiking we did, and with the excitement. One of the cruelest things about having T1D is going low because you are so excited about something. Its all good though. I made up for it with some of the most yummy food I have EVER eaten. (Plus with all the exercise I didn't gain weight!)

Grand Tetons
Got Milk?

Old Faithful
We hiked down to where the falls go over the mountain! It was Sooooo amazing and beautiful!
Mammoth Springs

The Sulfur Cauldron
Abigale Sheepie in Yellowstone! We have a picture of her where ever we go!

Buffalo Crossing
Fishing Bridge (Although you are really not allowed to fish there)

After the Loooonnnnngggg hike down to the falls! We survived! 
Grand Tetons
Abigale Sheepie at the Grand Tetons!