Sunday, October 31, 2010

Me too!

Like all the awesome D bloggin' mamas out there, I am joining in too!

FOR THE WHOLE MONTH, I will be blogging everyday, to help spread awareness about the "D"! So good luck to everyone out there! Count me in!!! :)

Happy Halloween and Giveaway winner!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

I know that Halloween can be a frustrating time with all the unpredictable running around and a sea of fee candy everywhere! However, I hope everyone has a wonderful, and uneventful
(meaning D, of course) time with your loved ones!

THE WINNER !!!!
Heidi from D Tales!!! Yay!

Please send me your address! My e-mail: trtprincess@hotmail.com

Thank you everyone for entering the contest. I look forward to hosting the future Sugar Bolus, starting in December!!!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Naked!!!!! Meme That IS!


I thought I should jump on Reyna's Naked Bandwagon. . . . .
(Don't take that the wrong way )


1. What kind on insulin management mode do you use?
I have a wonderful PINK Animas Ping Pump, affectionately known as "Pumpsley". I have a back-up. It's a Deltec Cozmo Green Pump. (I LOVED this pump!) I have a Dexcom named "Dexter"!

2. How often do you inject/change pump sites?
I use 90 degree steel infusion sets, called rapid D. I have NEVER been able to use the regular soft cannulas without something getting kinked or damaged, or not working right. I HAVE to change every 2 days or I have redness and poor absorption. I can NEVER use my stomach because the rate at which my body absorbs the insulin is very inconsistent!!! My legs have had it from so many years of shots, that I usually use arms to sites. This may freak you out but I also use the top part of my chest. I know this freaks out my mom! One of my good friends who works as a surgical nurse suggested it. I was pretty scared when I first tried it, but the absorption rate is perfect. I never worry about my site either, because I can see it, so it's not going to get rammed into by a door frame or counter. It is usually visable, so I do get those "ewwww, something's wrong with that girl!" stares". That kinda sucks. I have read on the internet that some people (boys and girls) use their breasts. (Graphic thought, SORRY) I still haven't been brave enough to try that. There are A LOT of medical professionals that say YOU HAVE to stay within the areas "proven". I say if you try and it works, then go for it. The only downfall is when using steel sets you sometimes get an ouchie poke.

3. What type (s) of insulin do you use?
I use Novolog. When I am on "pump vacation" or having a problem I use Novolog and Levemir.

4. What are your basal settings ?
12am: 1.5 units/h
03am: 0.75 units/h
06am: 2.25 units/h
10am: 1.75 units/h
12:30pm: 1.80 units/h
2:30pm: 1.50 units/h
6:30pm: 2.50 units/h
9:30pm: 1.25 units/h

Let's just say without the beautiful function of Temp. Basal, I would be in trouble!!!!

5. What are your correction factors ?
Morning before 10 1:20
Morning after 10 1:25
Afternoon 1:35
Evening before 6 1:25
Evening after 6 1:35


6. What are your meal ratios ?
Morning before 10 1:8
Morning after 10 1:10
Afternoon 1:15
Evening before 6 1:12
Evening after 6 1:10


7. What do you do for activity and/or PE?
Because there has NEVER been a predictable pattern in the way physical activity affects my BS, I make sure to keep close tabs on Dexter's trend, and use temp basals to be safe.


8. How do you manage Pizza, Macaroni and Cheese, or any other "difficult to manage" foods?

The same way I manage exercise, although I am on a diet, so I am really not eating foods that require crazy combos, o
r unpredictable temp basals!


9. How do you prefer to manage your logs/data?
The Dexcom software is Super Awesome. I love playing with it when I connect up. Otherwise I mark things on my meal plans for my diet and exercise.

MY ADDED QUESTION:
10. The BIGGEST thing, I learned from being a diabetic, that NOBODY INCLUDING MY DOCTOR told me?

EVERY emotion affects your BS numbers. Yes, I said "EVERY". Food can sometimes be easy to predict and correct. Emotions are a whole different story.

When I am SAD, DEPRESSED, or one of my Grandfriends dies.... The numbers go UP!
When I am EXCITED, or SUPER HAPPY.... The numbers go DOWN!
When I am STRESSED, or ANGRY.... The numbers go ALL OVER, UP or DOWN!
When I am SICK .... The numbers go ALL OVER, UP or DOWN!

It hard enough to worry about correcting and balancing food, but it is kinda defeating when you are SO EXCITED to go to Disneyland, or Phantom of the Opera in Vegas and have to worry because the anticipation and excitement is killing you! (Really)
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Oh, I was so busy I forgot to post Thankful Thursday!

Things I am so thankful for!




Hot Peppermint Tea with Splenda on a chilly day!










Our cute "farm" and the beautiful changes it's going through now that it's fall!
Oh, and not having to mow the grass!!!








Hickety, Pickety, Miss Cheep, Thumbelina, and Alice Fuzzybum! Our cute and always funny chickens! They are a hoot! They each have their own personality and it's funny to watch them! They lay beautiful eggs too! Of course we don't eat them! Although, hypocritically speaking, I can't imagine eating one that's your pet!



And as ALWAYS the super D Blogging friends, my family, friends, and my super cute boyfriend Ty!

Have a GREAT Weekend Everybody!

PS: Don't forget to enter the giveaway! If you blog about it, FBook it, or "Follow" my Blog you get an extra chance to win!

Weigh In Wednesday!!!!

I find it easier and psychologically more pleasant to countdown from things, that's just how I roll. Crazy, yeah. So for my Wednesday Weigh In Countdown. . . . . .

Last Week: 84.8
This Week: 81.7

I am pleased with the results, but must admit, it has been hard. I AM NOT a morning person nor a breakfast eater. Trying to do both has seemed to have nothing but negative consequences. Getting up earlier makes me feel SO tired the whole day. I like that I seem to get more done, but don't like that I never feel good all day. With the whole breakfast bit, I must have some switch that turns on the grazing, because the second I eat, I WANT TO EAT ALL DAY! I get this unsatisfiable desire to eat, and want every no-no food out there!

I am "supposed" to gear down to 1000 cals this weeks, but since I have been loosing, I may stay at 1200 for up to another two weeks until I can get a diet schedule down that works. I have found that there are some super yummy meals that feel like comfort foods. Healthy Choice makes a turkey, squash, cranberry meal that only has 210 cals in it! It's perfect for my evening meal, because I can just pop it in the microwave and go. The only downfall is that most of the meals have quite a bit of sodium in them. I am supposed to watch the levels of sodium, but it seems that the water pills are helping so much with the edema, I can eat one and not be in too much trouble.

I'm am trying to make goals like Heidi. I think I kinda jumped into this head first, and it has been a little overwhelming. It seems like you have to be in the mindset to go on a diet or it doesn't work. I guess my time was now, because I didn't want to put it off any longer.

I am happy for all the support, and feel like blogging about it makes me a little more responsible! My main goal is to be in the 40's for my birthday in February! I also think I am going to start saving $20 a payday, and put into an account so when I reach my goal, I can buy some new clothes! I am really hoping by the summer, I will have reached my goal.

I DO need some help with some ideas for exercise. When I was in the hospital I lost a lot of muscle, and need some ideas on getting back some strength!

Thanks again for being so supportive! I hope you are all having a marvelous day!
Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Let it Snow!

It's the most wonderful time of the year. . . . .
Today was our first snow storm of the season! I am sure that it will warm up before the end of the week, or at least I hope. It seems like in Utah the snow comes just in time to ruin Halloween, and then it warms up a little. Things are already seeming to be a little crazy. I LOVE the holidays, but when you are a Recreation Therapist, you get to be on holiday overload. I am planning now to maybe help relieve the extra stress. It seems to go so fast that you have a hard time enjoying it. Holidays are also so tricky. It becomes a balancing act of trying to get everything done, stress, bills, DIETING, and trying to figure out boluses and basal rates for complicated foods. I guess the only advice I could offer would be: Try to enjoy the "little" things that make the holidays special! My doctor always says the "holidays don't count as much". My CDE/RD says that you have to cheat and allow yourself forgiveness. Hopefully I don't go crazy. . . .LOL! I figure that diets are always around and you will always have some holiday to deal with. I have already started looking at good recipes that will help me stick with it. I hope everyone has a great time enjoying all the wonderful activities that are part of this non-stop holiday adventure until the end of the year.

Tonight I got to watch my sisters baby. She is here visiting from CT. I feel kinda bad because he's a mommas boy. I don't think he likes me that much! ;) Being 5 month's old he's a little bias. He better like me in the future! I am his Godmother, and besides, I ALWAYS send the best gifts! :)

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, October 25, 2010

SUGAR BOLUS!!!!!


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Hop on over to My Sugar Bugs and win a beautiful bracelet!

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I am looking for a "diet buddy", someone to email back and forth with, maybe swap ideas, and vent about the joy's of dieting. Of you are interested, please let me know! Thanks!


Saturday, October 23, 2010

Giveaway reminder...

Just a reminder. . . you can double your chances by mentioning my contest in your normal blog post. for my canadian friends, I have no problem shipping to you if you win! Have a great weekend.

I posted this from my phone! I feel acomplished. . . LOL

Friday, October 22, 2010

Getting to know you Giveaway!!

Hi, I'm Rachael!
Starting in December I am going to start doing the Sugar Bolus once a month, and I am SUPER DUPER excited! Since I love getting free stuff, and entering contests, I thought I would do my own to help me get to "know" everybody! So I am having a "Getting to Know You" Giveaway!

YOU COULD WIN. . . . .

An awesome digital key chain to keep your
loved ones with you all the time!
(It looks a little different than this one. My camera was giving me fits,
so I couldn't get a picture)

You will also win. . .

1.5 tray basket
A flavored honey gift basket from our local Utah company, Cox Honeyland.
If you win, I will let you decide what kind of honey you want.
There are a lot of yummy flavors!
(Basket will differ a little from the picture. If you don't like honey, I will send something different like honey soap, lotion, or just something else fun. )

To Enter. . .
You have 2 chances to win!

#1 "Follow" my Blog so you can keep updated on your dashboard. Then comment and let me know you did. If you already follow my blog, still leave a comment.

#2 Make a quick note and let others know! It can even be in your regular posts. No need to blog about it alone. Leave me a comment, and let me know what kinds of items you would like to see in the future Sugar Bolus!

You have until October 31st! I will pick a winner via the random number generator on November 2nd and announce the winner!

Good Luck and nice to "meet" you!!

Rachael

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Thankful Thursday!


Things I am so thankful for today.....






For being able to walk. My neuropathy sometimes makes it painful, but knowing that I can is such a blessing! There are so many people struggling to get around, and our ability to walk is something we all take for granted sometimes.


APPLES! They are so YUMMY and good for you! There are so fun to pick in the orchards. Golden Delicious are the yummiest!


Sunshine! It has been such a beautiful day filled with warm sun, and a light cool breeeze.

Pumpkins! Growing pumpkins is so much fun! They take on a life all their own. They are like people. All different sizes, colors, and personalities! We just set up our scene for the North Logan Pumpkin Walk, and it looks pretty awesome!




A beautiful time of the year filled with brilliant colors, crisp and sweet treats, and fun with family and friends! Hope everyone is having a wonderful fall season! (((HUGS))) to everyone, as the continue to triumph, corral, and battle the obstacles they are facing in their lives.... especially Type 1 Diabetes!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Hugs to You!!


I know that I have already blogged today, and about this same topic. But I just want to say to all the D mamas, and D papas out there! You are my Heros! My heart aches for all the the parents that have posted about the tragic death. I can't imagine the pain, and worry you all must be feeling right now. I know that no words can make things like this okay.

Please know that you are not alone, and there are so many people out there like me that have the utmost respect,and admiration for all the efforts you not only put into raising healthy, happy kids, but by what you are doing to help promote awareness, and above all help find a cure!
No one's baby deserves this. No parent should ever bury a child.
YOU are our future!

Hugs to you, all with much thanks!
Rachael

No words

I AM SHOCKED!!!!
I have been reading through the posts today, and noticed everyone talking about the young girl that passed away in the night. I have never heard of this before. As I followed the links to the medical sites, I broke down in tears when I read this one sentence.......
as many as 6% of deaths in people with T1DM who die before the age of 40 are due to the dead in bed syndrome.

I'm at a loss of words......

When I further read about what they think causes it, I must confess I am scared to go to bed. I have recently been diagnosed with heart problems, I have severe lows at night, and I have neuropathy. DESPITE a perfect A1c and pretty good control.

I can't help but want to cry. It seems like no matter what, no matter how hard you try, no matter how much money you put into technology, IT NEVER IS ENOUGH. I try to keep a good attitude, but things like this just knock you down so hard, it hurts!

What could someone say? I can't imagine the horror, of a parent no less finding a young loved one in a state of eternal sleep.

WHEN will this heartache ever end, it's just NOT FAIR, and I AM TIRED! I can't imagine what all the D mamas are feeling after reading this.......

My thoughts and prayers go to everyone battling this disease and its tentacles that reach into the hearts of everyone. There's nothing to say, no words could ever console something so intense. So hard. SO CRUEL.


My weigh In results: Down 5.2 lbs

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

SUGAR BOLUS!!!!!

SUGAR BOLUS!!!!!

Win super duper awesome possum great prizes!!!

Including this super cute Squeedle
Hoping I win this!!!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

D is for Dieting and Diabetes

EWWW.... they both start with DIE!!

Yes.... this is a rant about being on diet for less than a week. Yeah.....I'm being a baby right now!


Before you judge and just assume I am an oinker......Just hear me out.

Last night only a few days into my diet, I just snapped! Eating a whole container of fruit meant for the next three days breakfast. I sat on the couch, much like the cookie monster (after cookies became a SOMETIMES food), thinking, "What in the Hell am I doing" not stopping but cramming each perfectly round, squishy raspberry in my mouth, popping each crisp grape between my teeth. IN the moment I felt complete euphoria. On top of the world, not even carb counting or pre bolusing. Not even when Dexter was screaming at me to do something. In a trance with my fingers red from the raspberry juice. AFTER I could have cried as I washed out the green Tupperware container that seemed to be chastising me for being empty. I stared at it, and my "caught" red handed fingers. That night I lay in bed thinking, am I really addicted to FOOD?

Food..... It REALLY is the cornerstone of EVERYTHING in my life! That sounds disguising, but it's true. I work as a Recreation Therapist, and all the parties, outings, and luncheons mean FOOD, and not the diet kind. We all are "supposed" to sit as staff together to the most wonderfully delicious meals prepared by our cook for lunch (covered in butter). Being the oldest of nine kids, we celebrated every holiday to it's fullest, my sister works at the theater and brings yummy popcorn home in huge bags. Going to the park means a picnic, going to the fair means a corndog, birthdays mean cake, and Sunday means Family Dinner. Everyone including me and especially my boyfriend, are AMAZING cooks. Lastly, whenever something has happened, as pathetic as it sounds....... FOOD always tastes good, and makes you forget about the bad times, even if it is just for a moment.

It's not like being an alcoholic. ( Not that I would know, but I am assuming) When you give it up, you never do it again. Dieting means the Jack Daniels is there and you have to consume so much a day, but only so much. It would be better off not eating at all. Sadly, being diabetic you don't have the choice. If you don't eat, your BS drops, your liver makes sugar, and you end up on the roller coaster of YUCK! What's even more sad, is that I know if I just stopping taking insulin, or just small amounts letting my BS run high,the WEIGHT will just POUR off. I know because I have tried both in the past. NOT a smart idea. So here i sit with the decision to suck it up, and do it right to keep my perfect A1c of 5.8, or screw it all up. My doctor says my metabolism is so slow, I could probably eat 800 cals and still maintain. That's pretty crappy. I won't even get started on lack of time to exercise!

But for now, I am going to keep up my 1200 cal diet (soon to be 1000 cals next week, oh and I am not supposed to call it a diet, because it's FOR--E--VER), and try to keep from being a cookie monster. My thoughts, praise, and prayers go out to all those that are trying to diet right now too. It's a rough road, but we are going to do it!!

Oh, the joys!



Friday, October 15, 2010

Random Friday

Random Rantings..........


Have you ever seen the Muppets? Particularly the episode with the "manamana" muppet? It cracks me up. My BF loves the muppets, and this has become our new "whatever" word. Manamana. . . . . .



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My boyfriend knows I LOVE sheep, so he is always buying me sheep. I've got a whole flock. These sheepies were looking after Dexter.... LoL




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Is this little sheep just not the cutest thing ever? I don't know why but sheep just have a special place in my heart! I see them and I just want to run up and hug it!

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My Lucy goose. She is so funny! She's kinda bratty, and she loves to boss around the chickens, and loves treats!







I remember when she was a baby. We hatched her from an egg, and she was pretty bad off so we had to baby her back to health. It's amazing what a dropper and Poweraide can do.


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DIET!!!

I've officially started my new "diet". I guess I am not supposed to call it a diet, I guess it's a new way of eating. I am on a 1200 calorie diet for 2 weeks and then it's supposed to go down to 1000 calories. I am doing "okay" on the 1st 2 days. I have a problem telling if I have lost or not because my weight fluctuates up to -/+ 10lbs a day because of the edema. Even though I am supposed to weigh everyday, I am going to try to only look at the difference in a weekly weight. On Wednesdays. I will call it..... brace yourself...... Weigh in Wednesday. Creative I know...... I figure if I post it on my blog, then I will have to be more responsible about it. So I am hoping to loose 90 lbs, so let the count down begin! :)

Have a Wonderful Weekend!!!
:)




Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Some days. . . . .

Always Learning



Back to (Diabetes) School. . . . .

Today I met with a CDE/RD, I was nervous because all the nurses told me he was hot. Yeah, hot like when you have a super crush on a guy in high school...... Oh wait, maybe it was BECAUSE I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH HIM, AND REALLY HAD A CRUSH ON HIM!!! AWKWARD!

I had never really been to one. Although my A1c is 5.8, it came from trail and error, because I had to learn it all on my own. My pump trainer almost passed out in my office from a low, and I learned all I needed to know from the instruction manual, and the book, "Pumping Insulin" by John Walsh. The Holy Grail of Diabetic Glories! We have no resources for D where I live.

The conversation started out, you are lucky because Type 1 diabetes is the easiest to have, "If I was a diabetic, I would want to be a type 1". Hmmm mixed with a little WTF, and Grrr! NOT what I wanted to hear this morning, given my frustrations with a perfect A1c, and complications.

My edema is so bad, I know that has helped nudge me to finding help where ever I can. I don't think it has anything to do with weight. When I don't feel good it triggers it. Then its an up and down roller coaster, despite how much fluid I have, or should say don't have. I am hoping the kidney specialist can help out with this next month.

Anywho, we had a chat about weight loss, and what was I doing wrong.Today was an eye opener. I learned "there's no bad food". I still have reservations. I am supposed to be on a 1200 cal diet for the next two weeks, then move down to 1000. I don't know yet how to feel about it. Supposedly, I can eat any kind or amount of food as long as it doesn't go above the magical number, and I correctly bolus for it. It just seems to go against anything I have ever read or done. I can see the logic, but wonder how my body will respond, to my forever labeled (naughty foods). My thoughts race about the traditional low carb, low fat ideas, and really wonder how I would feel (physically) after eating 1200 cals of cookies. My mind races about whether insulin "makes you gain weight" or is that really a myth. Does having a hysterectomy give you the middle spread? I don't know......

He claims that the loss needs to come from calories and not exercise, because I am already pretty active. Despite that, I should be better about getting an extra walk in, and some weight lifting. I have become a weakling since my surgery. :(

Its funny how you still learn, and things change after you feel like you have a grasp on everything. All I know is that I am willing to try anything! I want to loose weight and it seems like a crazy uphill battle. Hopefully he is right! We will see.

Monday, October 11, 2010

"So are you going to be around in 10 years?"


Monday mornings we have department head meeting. Mondays just are not my favorite. They seem so rushed, because I work both of my jobs with no break in between. (Oh the joys of trying to afford insurance) Its non stop from 8:30am -12:00am. Dexter usually has a lot to say by the time 5:00 comes.

My boss came in after our meeting and wanted to know if I was okay. He was worried about me, and he is leaving me in charge of the building while he is away Wednesday through Saturday. He said "You seem sad." I kinda am. As most people know "worry" is just part of life when you are, or take care of someone with D.

I told him I was nervous about my heart and kidneys not doing their part. (I am so thankful that he has always kept my job in tact. One of the biggest reliefs is knowing I have, and will have a job.)

He asked how bad it was, I told him I don't know right now. He then asked "Will you be around in ten years"? (comforting, I know)

Hmmmm.... Will I be around in ten years?

I said, "I hope so, all I know for sure is that you have to live for right now". He agreed

Made me think.....

What will 10 years bring for me?

I know I won't get to have my own baby or be a mom.
I do know that I have so many friends who are willing to "share" their beautiful babies with me!

I know that I won't ever have a day that I won't need insulin.
I do pray that one day there will be a cure, and if not maybe health care for diabetics that makes it affordable for every person to have insulin pumps and CGMS.

I know that sometimes life is really unfair and I wonder Why?
I know that because I have experienced the things I have, I LOVE deeper, I am THANKFUL for every good day, and I feel GOOD EMOTIONS some will never feel, that is WHY!

10 years is so long, and yet so short. You really don't know how good you have it until it changes. For now I am thankful to be so blessed, and I KNOW that even though life is hard, yucky, and unfair...... It is wonderful, beautiful, and HAPPY!

Hope everyone has a HAPPY day today!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Blah. . . . .
I have been feeling under the weather, and the weather has been yucky! What gives?

It was my 3 month appointment. I got good news and bad. Good news? My A1c was 5.8! Yay! That makes me happy, especially since I had a couple of really crappy BS days! Bad news. . . . kidneys are not doing well at all. I have appointment with a kidney specialist next month. Although we live in a valley of 100,000 we have no specialists for kidneys, kids, or diabetes. Around here we all go to Internal Medicine docs. No offence to my doc, but I was a little shocked when I excitingly told him about Dexter, ans he had no idea what a Dexcom was, or how it functioned. I told him I need help with fine tuning basal rates, he had no idea what I was talking about. He is sending me to a CDE next week. I am nervous because I am supposed to talk to him about going on a diet that works with all dietary restrictions. I have been told he is really hot, and he is a personal trainer. Not excited. If life wasn't complicated enough, now I get to park my fat a** in a room with a hottie talking about weight....nice.

My supposed "idiopathic edema" is getting worse by the day. Up 10lbs one day, and down 9lbs the next. It's so tiring, and I hate it! I have been so good about following salt and liquid restrictions! I am ready to say screw it, at least the liquid part, I feel like I am crawling through a hot dessert all day. I am so thirsty! Seriously, 6 cups a fluid a day? I can drink that much after 1 hour at the gym!

It's gotta better sometime! On the bright side it's fall and I sure love Halloween. My boyfriend helps keep me sane, he is so amazing!

Happy Sunday!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Sugar Bolus

Don't forget to visit and sign up for super duper awesome prizes!! Yay!

Thanks to "I Am Your Pancreas for hosting this week!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

No D Day .... Yay

Today I took the Grandfriends to Antelope Island (about 1 1/2 hours from where we live), It's an island in the middle of the Great Salt Lake. It has a lot of buffalo, and birds! Enjoy the pics and have a wonderful "No D Day!"









Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Ewe are awesome


I was talking to one of the Granfriends today and her 10 year old granddaughter came in. We were right in the middle of talking about how cute we thought baby sheepies were. Her granddaughter was so sweet and she kept looking at my wrist with an excited curiosity. Finally she said, "Whats your pretty bracelet say?" I said "Its to let people know I am a Type 1 Diabetic if I ever need help." Before I could finish my sentence her face lit up and she flew across the room practically in my lap, so excited to tell me that she too was a T1D. She was talking a hundred miles an hour telling me about maybe getting a pump, and shots. I just looked at her and said, "You are awesome!" She stopped for a moment and said, " So are you!", and gave me a high 5! I showed her Pumpsley and Dexter, and she told me all about going to D camp, and how all the kids have one, and her experiences in the hospital.

Got me thinking.... Maybe I need to be a little more excited about it! :) That made my whole week!

Never a day without. . . .

Beautiful Bear Lake



Gorgeous views in the Canyon



My, oh so cute super duper wonderful honey! Who would probably kick my bum for posting this ultra cheesy picture of us. Plus, I look super ghetto!

Bear Lake Sunset

LEAVES!!


Sunday, my boyfriend (he's so cute), a friend, and I went up the canyon. It was such a beautiful day, we looked for leaves, and took pictures, went for a picnic and went to Bear Lake. I have been reading in a lot of blogs about how much diabetes is just part of life, and how others are fighting it all the time. It seems like these are the things that are constant, no matter the age of diabetes. My day consisted of both. . . .

The day "started" at 4:30am when Dexter was freaking out. I reached for him in my haze. 52 was the number of the hour. I am usually so good I can test with the lights off, without ever getting out of bed, but low and behold, I was like a mummy wrapped all which way by oxygen tubing, pump tubing, and my sheet (how in the H*ll do sheets do that?! Grrr). So I got up, and I was 47, blood on the covers, drooling icky Dex orange flavored glucose tabs. Crawled back to bed, not giving a rat's pa-toot about the sheets.

Got up around 8:00, ahhhhhh the glories of sleeping in! Covered up my sites and hopped in the shower, realized it was site change day AFTER, I stepped out of the shower, and feeling like I was showing a true badge of defiance jumped back in to shower "free".

Found an outfit that work for all my D "Friends" (I made a ton of cute "pump clothes" but realized that they were all defiantly Summer looking clothes. Taking another stab at the man (D man that is) I decided on a lovely purple outfit.

We all met up and went to the canyon. Playing and collecting and hiking through all the beauties of the day and season. Then. . . .the dreaded beeping started! Dexter was pissed and my BS was double down arrows. Usually 2x something is good, but not for Dexter. So I drank a juice box and kept playing. this trend kept on all day. I finally put Pumpsley on a 12 hour -90% basal for the day.

We stopped at the store, and I noticed a lady with a little girl looking at me, well strike that, I could feel there eyes piercing my arm and tubing, almost reading their thoughts, then came the inevitable...... "MOM!!! "MOOOOOOMMMMM!! What's wrong with THAT woman!" I glanced over, knowing that she knew I heard. "MOMMMMMM, MOMMMMMM" she continued. The lady got mad and said "SHE'S SICK OKAY!" The little girl then glared at me, and did a classic kid "Eeewwwwwww". Wow mom now I know why your kid is a MEGA BRAT! To add to the drama of the moment, now that there were several people looking, I walked over and stood kinda close, checking out the items on the shelf next to them. A little ironic that it was pastries, and damn that bear claw with cream cheese and raspberry looked mighty tempting. The little girl ran behind her mom, and while the mom wasn't looking I stared her down, until she ran off. The mom gave me a dirty look, and as sweet as that claw, I smiled and said, "Have a wonderful day". Yeah I was a B*$^h, but it was kinda funny. I have never done that and it felt liberating.

We had a fun day, and what's funny is that I can see the 2 sides of people's frustrations almost perfectly. You fight it all the time, and yet its part of you. What a strange thing. A D friend made the comment a couple of weeks back regarding "inviable illness" that really made me think. She said that she almost wished that T1 D was visible, not because she wanted sympathy but when you see someone with a bald head in the store, with out knowing that person, you feel compassion for them, and figure they are fighters of a complicated, and life altering disease. When you tell people you have diabetes they assume you did it to yourself, because people only think of the diabetes that they hear of on TV. They always show overweight adults exercising and say you can reverse it. Blah....

What a powerful thought though. WE ARE FIGHTERS!!! I just wish there was better education on what T1 D REALLY means!!

I LOVED Reyna's book she made for her son's class about her son's D. I wish it was required for every human on earth.

Happy Wednesday!


Sunday, October 3, 2010

Grrrrrrr

This is completely a rant. . . .

In August I had a hysterectomy, I now I can never sleep! I am so tired and get I just lay there awakened by cold sweats, and feeling like I am crawling out of my skin!

I went to the Dr. and he said that "its all in womens' minds". I don't know, either way here is a 3:30 in the morning post, and that grrr is not me snoring in slumberland!

Mr. Sandman where in the H#LL did you go?


Friday, October 1, 2010

GIVE AWAY!


Is having a super awesome give away! Check it out to win some super "sweet" bags! Yay!

Happy October 1st!


Happy October 1st!

Our family runs a Haunted Attraction called "Dead's End". So... we LOVE October! I can't believe it's already here. We make all our own creatures! It started as a a neighborhood activity in our yard thirteen years ago.

Last July there was a landslide, and we lost our home, so this year we had an interested party ask us to do it as a "business" so for the first year we have become, a Haunted Attraction, instead of a Yard Haunt. It will be an adventure for sure! Here are some pictures of some our creations! Enjoy! :)





See more on my website at www.deadsendyardhaunt.com